me against the world

“An expert chocolate-maker has resigned after he was caught squashing truffles at a rival manufacturer’s shop.”

Read the story here.

I panicked the other night.

I was worried that all my efforts mean nothing and that I won’t be able to achieve what I want to achieve.

But then I slept it off. I took two nights and a few meaningful conversations and I’m back where I like to be. I feel confident and determined to work hard and get what I want. That’s the way I like it: the ball in my court and the knowledge that the more I practice and prepare, the more likely I will score and ultimately win.

I will give details in another post.

At this very moment, I’m hating the academic system.

I just hit a roadblock in terms of my plans and I am going to attempt to go around it.

However I think I’m going to hit a wall in the corporate system.

Joy.

I feel like a nobody. Thank you wonderful system.

Today I spoke at an internship session at school and actually realized that I am proud of what I have achieved so far.

At the same time, today I talked to a few different counselors and realized that achieving the next few stages of my “plan” is going to be a very complex procedure.

I want to take on so many things and go down so many avenues, that I seem to get overwhelmed sometimes. I know as well as anyone else does that I should take things a step at a time, and make each achievement one by one.

But sometimes it’s hard to just sit down and make my hyperactive brain stop so that I can focus. I’ll have to work on that.

It’s only the start of October and I’m already swamped with school work. That’s not an exaggeration either. Starting with last Thursday, I have something listed in my schedule due each day until this upcoming Friday. I’ll be really happy when Thanksgiving Weekend finally gets here.

Regardless of the stress that this work is causing me, I am really happy to be back at school. I had missed the campus life and the feeling of being in class and learning. I sound like a nerd, but I knew while I was working that I wanted to come back and learn more before I go out into the real world.

Of course, I miss having the money and I miss having my weekends free.

I won’t lie though. I have been having some fun here and there too, so things are good. I should mention that I had an incident while inline skating this weekend and am now limping around. It seems to fit my profile as I always hurt myself because I am so active. Oh well… I’m just glad I can still walk up the stairs to my apartment. I live on the fourth floor and there are no elevators, so if I couldn’t do that then I would have a really big problem.